My Last Supper(s)

Ok, ok, I admit, I haven't been updating you guys about my Fat Smash Diet... I gave myself enough time to boost up my self esteem, motivation, drive, etc. etc... I had to go through several eating disorders just to help me achieve what I needed before going through my diet. I've been dieting for eons already and have tried all kinds of stuff, but nothing ever worked... That's when I came to realize that the problem doesn't lie on - what I am taking, or doing to lose weight. It is, what do I want for myself! So the only thing that I need, and cannot be bought, is ddddddddetermination....

For the past two weeks, I have indulged myself to eating and bingeing until my buttons pop out. I always thought of food. Ate everything edible. I had Indian, Vietnamese, Singaporean, Chinese, Mexican, Japanese, Italian, American, Filipino, name it, I ate it...




I was too shy to post the pictures of those "eating everything" days because it was literally pigging out... And I don't want you guys to think how gluttonous I am...

Last Wednesday, for the first time in my entire life, I enjoyed using the "Treadmill". I bought this electric treadmill maybe 3 or 4 years ago, tried it a couple of times, but never really liked it... I find it boring and noisy... Or maybe I was busy monitoring my speed, calories, pulse, distance and time, that I find it really slow, as if time wasn't moving... Which reminds me, hey, "A watched pot never boils!"

I realized that the only thing that would make me enjoy the Treadmill is by using an Ipod! So when I was warming up, I played it, and wasn't even aware that I was already hooked on it, singing, and forgetting about the treadmill... It worked!!! Time flew so fast, I felt as if I wanted to stay longer... But, again, I told myself, never, ever tire myself... It happened before, I got so tired, that I didn't want to do it again.... So now, I don't want myself to get too engrossed with the treadmill, I'll just enjoy it, so I won't get sick of it!!!

I have read the Fat Smash Diet Book. I understood it. But I don't want to do it. It is easy to do. But I can't. I can't live with only fruits and veggies for 9 days. I'd die. And doing that would only deprive me of eating what I want and make me lose my self control. So, in other words, it's a no-no.... But, I want to do a part of it... So I would be eating lots of greens, lots of protein, almost 0 carbs, (i said almost not 0), plenty of water, and lots of exercise. That would be my Fat Smasher.

Today is the first day of my diet. The first carb that I ate was a McDonald's Double Cheeseburger at around 4pm... And I want it to be the last for today... Such a big accomplishment!!! Don't laugh peeps... I know you find me sooo shallow... But for me, it's really a big deal!!! I love carbo and white rice is my weakness...

One thing I find odd in this diet - I think I am enjoying it!!!

I am putting up a contest real soon... But you guys have to be patient... I still have to look for a cute prize for you my dear readers... Don't worry, it won't be too much of a hassle to join...

So keep on visiting... I'll be posting the contest proper and the rules in a few days...

Ta-ta...