Sorry if this post seems to be a little depressing... But I'd try my best not to make it one... Last Sunday, 6 days after giving birth, I felt really, really sad... The thing is, I was sad for no reason at all... All I wanted was to leave, go to the US and have fun! I told my hubby that I want to go to the States, and he asked, why??? And I replied, to escape from you and forget all the bad things you've done to me... He just kept quiet...
That Sunday, he had a 6pm appointment. Maybe that was the reason why I was depressed. The fact that he's leaving and I'll be left alone with the baby and my 5 year old daughter...
He came home at 9pm and I didn't talk to him... I was grumpy... I was craving for attention... I don't know, but I started to shout and say bad things to him... Things a wife shouldn't tell to a husband...
I knew he was hurt... He slept outside the room... It was then that I realized that he stood by me in the Operating Room, he took care of me, he bathe me, he woke up several times in the middle of the night just to walk me to the restroom, he changed/changes my dressing every so often, he combed my hair, he gave me everything I needed when I was bedridden... I think not all husbands can do what he did for me... I felt guilty...
I'm just happy now that it's over... I just read that Post Partum Blues is a fact... The severe drop of Progesterone and Estrogen levels causes this and sends a signal to our brains that makes us feel depressed... Some women who have bigger problems lead to Post Partum Depression... The most common problems are marriage and money... And the best solution for this is just plain Talk Therapy...
Now, I feel sorry for what I did to my hubby... I prayed hard and thought to myself to be just happy, contented, and be thankful that I am blessed with a good and comfortable life...
That Sunday, he had a 6pm appointment. Maybe that was the reason why I was depressed. The fact that he's leaving and I'll be left alone with the baby and my 5 year old daughter...
He came home at 9pm and I didn't talk to him... I was grumpy... I was craving for attention... I don't know, but I started to shout and say bad things to him... Things a wife shouldn't tell to a husband...
I knew he was hurt... He slept outside the room... It was then that I realized that he stood by me in the Operating Room, he took care of me, he bathe me, he woke up several times in the middle of the night just to walk me to the restroom, he changed/changes my dressing every so often, he combed my hair, he gave me everything I needed when I was bedridden... I think not all husbands can do what he did for me... I felt guilty...
I'm just happy now that it's over... I just read that Post Partum Blues is a fact... The severe drop of Progesterone and Estrogen levels causes this and sends a signal to our brains that makes us feel depressed... Some women who have bigger problems lead to Post Partum Depression... The most common problems are marriage and money... And the best solution for this is just plain Talk Therapy...
Now, I feel sorry for what I did to my hubby... I prayed hard and thought to myself to be just happy, contented, and be thankful that I am blessed with a good and comfortable life...
2 comments:
very well said. we should always be thankful for everything :) smile always
hi jcc... thanks! yes, i'll do that!
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